tiny_squirt

well this weekend was officially crappy.
For starters i got in my first car accident which sucks... im ok but my neck hurts and i have bruises from the seat belt under my ribs... and i smoked my head off of the seat in front of me so ive had a killer head ache all weekend... then i was at a party at a "friends" house and there were a few guys there i had never met and while i was outside they went through my purse and took some money so that sucked.. oh well teach me to trust people... and then i was supposed to go to dans party but the silly rain got in the way... oh well nothing can be done about that.. unfortunetly i got stuck babysitting.. on well i hadnt hung out with my little bro in a long time... it wasnt soo bad...got a lot of junk today done that i had been procrastinating which was good...other then the above mentioned the weekend wasnt all bad.. i got to see lisa and april again which was good i hadnt seen my girls in forever! i missed them soo much so we had a nice catch up chat on friday night at their house once we got back from the party... we went for a walk on the back hill and fell in a hole lol... and were going to do some good ole sign stealing again... but we have most of the cool ones already... anyways im off to do some more hmwrk ciao all
~ bay

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting

I’m through with doubt
There’s nothing left for me to figure out
I’ve paid a price
And I’ll keep paying

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can’t you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’
It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said

Send somebody so over the edge
That they’d write me a letter
Sayin’ that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting

sooo this weekend has been pretty darn awesome for the most part. i got to spend it with my bestest best michelle which is awesome. we went to church together on a long car ride which we slept all the way... sleep is our friend... other then that weve been doing the typical gurly stuff and having lots of fun doing it....

also me and scott just broke up... which kinda sucks but meh what can yea do it was bound to happen, seeings how it is me after all and well we all know that i dont keep boys around very long anyways.. so it was probably for the better, it sounds odd but i feel oddly refreshed... i mean yea im sad.. more in shock right now and once it sets in on what i have done then ill probably be more upset.. but as for the moment i feel like i can finaly go back to being me n not have to worry about anyone but me... no ones problems but my own... and get back to my friends which i love dearly and just want to be with... anyways looking forward to the rest of my amazing weekend peace out everyone hope your long weekend has been kick ass!
ciao.. lots of love
~bay

So RENT was BITCHIN!! had a blast... so many funny times... SURPRISE... gawd yea tool... ahh shit lol julia.. dear God tina is an IBO lol the play is stunning and for anyone who hasnt seen the movie i strongly urge it because it is amazing despite what anyone says i think it was brilliant! so i managed not to get shot or anything like that although that was mainly julia running behind us keeping us in line like a sheep dog lmao. Mr. GreenJeans is an amazing resturant if anyone hasnt been there i suggest going because it rocks, all in all it was an amazing weekend with my ladies. looking forward to many more times. good fun great friends good combination.

Well im sitting in the library completly bored to death.. although this is my last day at school for a total of 5 days which is exciting. i leave tonight for New York and cant wait....time to just put away all of lifes drama and troubles and have some good ole fashioned fun! also comming up is our trip to Wonderland with my Travel and Tourism class... looking forward to going on lots of rides with matt and Kate... were gonna rock er up! Me & Kate= roller buddies lol eh kate! were gonna scream soo loud.. break out the ear plugs.. and then there is matt's sideways scream you cant help but laugh at... man the library needs to get some music or something better to do for people like me who choose to ignore library work time and do something totally different then what they are supposed to be doing... just like i am now.....

So things have been getting better lately i guess.... the weekend wasnt too bad.... got to see lots of family including my dad... dont think he cares tho... hes more interested in his Girlfriend/ fiance then me... but then what else is new... ive never been top on his list of anything... but meh what can yea do... there are only so many tears which can be shead for such a purpose and eventually yea just gotta learn to deal with it and except the fact that sometimes people just dont care...everyone else in my family was good and thats the main thing... Great nan was surprised and happy which was my main goal.. shes such a cutie... anyone who doesnt kno her she is short and english and cute as a button. so other then that things were good

well im gonna jet now and find something productive to do... haha yea right

ciao:)

Well it was the easter long weekend and it was a blast. friday was a fun dinner for two and just hanging and then saturday through monday was spent with family and friends... i know im a nerd but family is the single most important thing to me. without them i wouldnt be the person i am today and thus i am thankful everyday that i come from the crazy twisted and just plain weird family i do. there were food fights, wrestling, baseball, jokes, and i even won at some poker ( my cousins say beginners luck) wasnt very lucky for long though as i quickly lost.. teehee... oh well it was fun. Only two weekends left before i go to Syracuse New York. Cant wait. Even though its only six minutes on stage its six minutes showing an audince of over 500 what i can do and what my group can do... and i love all those gals to death! Looking forward to shopping , and hanging out on the University campus.. OOO frat houses! WOOHOO.. lol. Things are good and looking forward to the weekend with michelle! Party on babe!

well Hey everyone i just opened this with the help of my darling friend Kate.. i love her to death, and i love that i got her saying Bah Ha. Lol. so hopefully you guys take some time out of your busy scheduals and read some junk or just drop a comment by to say hi.

Anyways i thought this would be a good time to rant about life lately, and how lifes lessons seem to come at the weirdest times.
Example, you think you know someone and you do all you can to make them happy but then it just turns out that your doing to complete opposite of what you thought you were doing and intended to do. And then it seems like all your hard work just gets thrown back at you and you wonder why you even gave a damn in the first place. Then emotions begin to highten and words are expressed that probably arent the right choice, but rather the only ones found for the moment. The next thing you know you find yourself regretting things and still being mad about others and you wish for one second you could go back in time and fix things but you know that even if you did go back there is no guaruntee that it would work out any better the second time around. People always say things happen for a reason and no matter how hard you try to avoid the inevitable from happening it always does.. thats why they call it the inevitable... Once again you find your self surrounded by people but the only person you want to talk to and express things to is the person who isnt speaking to you. Sometimes i wish i could just pick up the phone and call.. or say something to make it better, but i know no matter how hard i try somehow it isnt good enough and i find myself wondering what other fun twists life is going to throw me, and whether im going to catch them head on, or hit them out of the park. .. life is full of surprises like that, and the more i deal with them the more i learn.
I put on this fake smile and play the happy ditz but secretly inside im screaming suffocating in the mask i pretend to wear, searching a sea of emptiness for my answers which lie there.